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Ain't It A Shame Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in the "China!" journal:
December 6th, 2008
12:11 am


why do you always have to ruin stuff?
is it really necessary to make everyone around you miserable?
who cares if people don't care about looks as much as you.
i hate it when you act like this.

i care.
you need to lay off a little. or act slightly nicer.

thank you.

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December 1st, 2008
12:49 pm


school can die a slow painful death.
i always liked school, but now..i would quit if i got the chance.

fuck you socio of deviance.

other than school, i'm pretty happy. i'm finally working again, and that makes me happier than anything. it's sad how much i missed the people that i worked with.

friends are amazing. i can't wait to go up to columbus with steph to see classic addict! gah, it's gonna rock. i need to hang with my sara more. she's having stupid friend issues and so she needs to spend time with less stupid friends. like me!

um, i'm on twitter now. i didn't understand the fascination with it, but...now i'm obsessed.

follow me, i'll follow you!

apparently i'm gonna go see family force 5 tonight! love them.

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May 8th, 2008
05:56 pm


I don't know what is up with this damn week. but i'm tired of it. both of my animals passed away. work sucks. everything sucks. ya know, i always wondered how people dealt with this kind of stuff, but now....i think i get it. i think i understand why people turn away from god and all that. i'm starting to think that maybe just believing is enough for me. maybe all the miracles that people talk about are crap. sucky stuff happens, but we have to get through it on our own. we make our own lives, and in an instant they can be over. no rhyme or reason. i'm tired of pretending to be someone i'm not. so, just for myself, here's a few things.

i think i'm more agnostic than anything. i believe there is a god, but i believe more in myself and love.

i can't live without my medicine.

aiken is the worst place in the world, in my mind. i hate it here. i would rather be anywhere else.

i don't being around all of my family at the same time, their perceived conceptions of me are wrong, and it makes me feel bad when they are surprised by my actions.

i'm gonna go on leave from work right after my birthday.

i have a few friends that i don't like being around.

i don't understand how people can be content with the boring lives they lead, and seem to have no drive or ambition for more.

don't try to change me.

Current Location: Hell
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: When I Come Around - Green Day

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April 21st, 2008
03:49 pm


I am so ready to graduate and get out of Aiken. This is the most boring town ever. seriously. I want to beat some fools in the head. ya know why? cause they are dumb. People that I usually wanna hang out with...i don't really want to anymore. I have new people that are becoming way important to me. i have new interests that are becoming way more important to me. i'm not the same person i was in high school. i don't want to be. i want change. i want to be able to do something and not be questioned. i want to get an apartment BY MYSELF and not have anyone whining cause i didn't want to be their roommate. I just want....everything. and i can't get that here.  

Current Location: la escuela
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative

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March 11th, 2008
12:20 am


Writer's Block: I'm Ashamed of...
What are you ashamed of?
I'm ashamed of me not realizing my potential earlier. I could have done so much more for the world. 

i'm ashamed of people that i use to associate myself with.

i'm ashamed of.....that i had not been living my life to the fullest, but that's over.

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